Throughout my life I have done everything that was expected of me. I worked hard in school, achieved good grades, participated in activities, athletics, and went to college and majored in nursing. I have worked as a nurse for a couple of years now. I am very happy with my life.
There are different kinds of nurses. I knew I wanted to be a nurse, but I never actively knew what area of nursing I wanted to be in. When I first started I fell into the role rather than actively working towards it as a career choice. It was a different role, one I never thought I would have, but there I found myself excelling.
I spent the last two years at a job where I have worked harder than I ever have in my life. I worked long hours and went above and beyond fighting so hard for what was best--what was right. There were days I worked so hard that when I got home, I had nothing else to give. I also had many laughs and triumphs.
I do believe that total career satisfaction is unattainable for most; some days will be good, some days will be bad and others will make you question every career choice you have ever made while drinking the entire bottle of wine, but I have always assumed that as long as the good outweighs the bad then you are doing the right thing.
The good had not outweighed the bad for a long time. So, I took the risk.
I quit my job and found a new one.
I went into nursing for different reasons than I found myself actually doing. I told myself that I was doing was helping others do their job. To this day, I truly believe it was.
Unfortunately, I found that I seemed to be working harder than others. The pressure of the job intensified. I felt I couldn't even take time off because of the workload and worried about the detrimental impact that time off would have.
My tasks were more crowd control oriented and just plain flat not direct nursing care based. I wanted to be that person that helped the patients. I know I was, just in a different capacity, but it was just too hard with too little results too slowly.
It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair to my patients, to my co-workers/employees, or to me. After a while, I just had to do what was right for me and not worry about others.
I want to look at my life and be happy. I thought that would be me getting a job and staying and retiring at that company. That was what I expected.
Now I realize, that what you expect may not always be the best. Holding yourself to a high standard includes taking into account your happiness and well being. Sit down and decide 3 of the most important things you want in your life. Can you achieve them on the path you are on?
The best part about this process was my husband. He has witnessed what I have been through in the last few years and above all he wants me happy. (Happy wife, Happy life)
And now here I am doing a job again that I like. Sometimes you have to go out of the expected and chase your own happiness...all while remembering you have bills to pay.
Have you ever taken a huge risk?