October 20, 2014

I Sometimes Don't Sleep Well at Night

The other day, myself and another nurse were sitting thinking about our patient who was dying. We knew it, but we didn't want to say it. We went home and I knew before I was falling asleep that I would miss something. That very night I woke up in sweats having a terrible dream that my sister died. My patient was the one that died that night.

This patient didn't have family. I truly believe she is in a better place. Sometimes it helps me when they don't have big families. What I mean by that, is that nurses don’t enjoy being the “bad guy.” I don’t enjoy having to break the bad news that their loved one has just passed on. The truth is, every one of us would love nothing more than to see you get that miracle you are praying for. But we would rather be the bearers of bad news that the encouragers of false hopes.

It is physically and emotionally draining being a nurse. Often times I go to work, drive home, eat, shower, and then go directly to sleep. No other time to unwind.

You see, we may leave our charting at work. But we bring our worries home with us.

“Did I miss anything?” “Was there anything else I could have done for her today?” And at 2 a.m., when we wake up for a moment in the night, our thoughts immediately as we look at the clock return to your loved one – “Gosh, I wonder how she’s doing tonight.”

We know our patients very well. We know how they respond to each one of their family members and know how they will respond to their medications. We watch people go in and out of the rooms, and we very protectively question them – “Who are you?” “Did you need something?” We turn them, tuck them in with soft pillows, rub their feet with lotion, reassure them, caress their forehead, and tell them it’s going to be okay.

And we tell them goodbye.

I may not cry, I may be laughing with another patient five minutes later, but it is how I cope. I promise, I really do care for your loved ones. But I have to cope too. I know what a breaking heart feels like, and when your loved one is dying, and we have had the privilege of caring for them – Our heart gets another ache in it, and it often causes us to recall loved ones we miss dearly.

I missed saying goodbye to my patient the other day, because I was off-shift when she left. It hurts to say goodbye but it sometimes is worse to have not said goodbye.

We nurses care for ALL of our patients. But sometimes, there are just some who we will never, ever forget.

#3  When you’re a nurse you know that every day you will touch a life or a life will touch yours. – Author Unknown
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October 17, 2014

Sopapilla Cheesecake

I am an expert eater. I really am. Unfortunately too, I am starting to look like it. Operation weight loss is going slowly at this point...

But I have to share one of my favorite desserts today. It combines everything I am at an expert of: eating, dessert, and Mexican food.

In case those of you don't know, a sopapilla, is a fried pastry of yummy-ness. You can do many things with a sopapilla non-dessert related, but for dessert you either eat it with honey or covered in cinnamon-sugar.


Ingredients:

2 cans of crescent rolls
2 (8 oz) packages of cream cheese, softened
1 1/2 cups of sugar
1/2 cup of butter, melted
1 teaspoon of vanilla
1 table spoon of ground cinnamon
Honey to drizzle

Directions:

Unroll one can of crescent rolls and place at the bottom of an 8x8 baking dish. Cover the dish pressing together all the perforations.

Beat together the cream cheese and 1 cup of the sugar. Then beat in the vanilla. Spread over the dough in the dish.

Unroll the last can of crescent rolls and place over the cream cheese mixture carefully pressing the perforations together.

Pour melted butter over the dough and mix together the remaining sugar and cinnamon and pour evenly over the melted butter.

Bake for about 30 minutes or until the center is set at 350 degrees.

When out, let cool for 20 minutes after drizzling honey over the top. Then dig in an enjoy! I love eating it warm. Store in the fridge (since it has the cheesecake and all) but then you can remove from the fridge and place a square in the microwave to zap 10 seconds and enjoy!

What is a dessert that makes you lose all your will power?

October 15, 2014

10 Things I Wish I'd Known About Decorating my First Home

I was talking to a friend who's about to decorate her first home. She asked me if there was anything I wish I'd known when I went to decorate my first place that would have saved me time or money.  Absolutely there are a few things...

1. Buy your big pieces of furniture secondhand/at lowest cost: This is not just about saving money, it's also about how your style will change as you learn what you like and don't like. Don't spend a lot on a piece by justifying that it's a piece you've always wanted and an investment in your future. The likelihood is that your style will likely change until it reaches a point where it slowly evolves.

2. Reconsider before you reject: When you move into your first place, people will be so excited for you that they may want to gift you with some of their old stuff (or they may just be trying to get rid of it!). Before you immediately reject it, make a list of inexpensive changes you might make to it. You might reupholster an old couch or paint its frame, remove a skirt or add a pillow or six. Not only will this save you money, it will hone your ability to look at a piece in a flea market or antique shop or Craig's List and see its potential.

3. Inspiration boards are not always good for decorating your first space: I've found that trying to recreate someone else's room in your first space, a space that will go through a lot of transitions, ends up costing you a lot in time and money. #ThanksAlotPinterest

4. Paint is your best friend: You can paint a wall or a piece of furniture, dip the legs of your mismatched chairs in paint to unify them or paint a block of color behind your bed to act as a faux headboard. Stencils are also an inexpensive way to bring a space from drab to fab!

5. Know Your Whites: I ended up buying a good amount of really expensive paint in a beautiful grey color. This grey goes really well with a cool white and not a warm white. And I am sure that you can surmise that my trim was a warm white....The grey made my trim look dirty instead of warm white.

6. Move Things Around:  Take the time to try out different configurations to get to the best one to live it. This even and maybe especially goes for your kitchen and where you place things in your cabinets. It can be a lot of work to move this stuff, but I think well worth it.
7. Chill out With the Color:  Neutral walls can help you do more with color without overdoing it or being too tied down to it. It gives you more room to decorate with color in a space and change your mind again, again, and again.
8. Be Patient:  Like I mentioned above with the color, I ended up painting my guest bath a neutral color. I did not know what color palate I wanted in there. Then I decided coral was going to be my color. I was excited but could never find the things I needed to decorate the space in my coral color scheme. WTH?! So then I got impatient and went with blue. Moral of this story...I still want coral.
9. Let your home annoy you: It's tempting, after a day of looking at decor mags and blogs, to want to fix everything in your space, especially when it comes to storage issues. But instead of trying to solve it immediately (which usually involves buying a lot of storage containers), live with the problem for a while. I am living with the blue in my guest bath right now. Often you'll happen upon a better solution that will end up being cheaper and simpler. Which brings me to the biggest lesson:

10. Live with as little as you can: It's tempting, when you first live alone to want to get all that stuff you've been eyeing for ages. Yes, you may be a home decor junkie but, instead of buying every pillow and flowerpot you see, take a picture of it, pin it to your Pinterest board or post it on your blog. Just wait a few months and your home will have accumulated plenty and you won't want clutter. Embrace the minimalism and ensure that you love something before you drop the cash for it. 
What do you wish you would have done the first time around?
What are some of your tips for first time home/apartment decorators?

October 14, 2014

I Was a Unique Kid

Kids are funny.
There always seem to be some unique things we all do as kids and it is totally funny to look back on it all.
I am sorry mom for all you put up with from me. :-)

For instance...

I ate butter. Yep, just would get a spoon or take a bite off the ol stick. I won't say anymore...

I hit, bit, kicked, and screamed. Bad attitude kid over here.
(I have gotten better guys! I promise, be my friend!)

I spoke my own language.
Conkey=Candy for example...

My mom didn't cut my hair for the longest time because she loved my curls. I went from having a tender head to NOT.

I learned to crawl backwards before I crawled forward.

I smiled weird as a kid. Think Lilly from Modern Family.

I have never liked sleeping alone.


What are some funny things you did as a kid or your kid does now?

October 13, 2014

Slow Cooked Pulled Elk

I love my game recipes. I have previously shared a recipe making Dove. Now I am sharing an elk recipe. Those who aren't used to game meat will like this. Very mild.

If you like pulled pork, you will like this recipe. This was the perfect recipe since in the fall I fall in love with my slow cooker all over again!

Plus you can freeze some for later!

Ingredients:

2 pounds elk
1 cup of original barbecue sauce
1/2 teaspoon ketchup
2 tablespoons of light brown sugar
1/4 cup of vinegar
1 tablespoon worcestershire sauce
2 tablespoons mustard
1/2 teaspoon chili powder

Directions:

Turn on the slow cooker to high. Rinse the elk under cold water and place into the slow cooker.

Combine the rest of the ingredients in a medium bowl and pour over the elk.

Cover and cook on high for 3 hours.

When it is done, place it on a plate and shred it with two forks. Then return the elk to the sauce and mix well. Serve on a hamburger bun.

Enjoy!

Have you ever tried elk?
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